I love me!!

I have never dieted before, and no matter how many times i say I would diet, I don't. because i know that i don't need to diet. I just need to eat healthier. I once weighed myself and found that my weight, in relation to my height, i just made it into the "healthy" range.

I understand that people need to diet
I understand that some people need too.

I understand that some people will never think they are skinny enough
I understand
I really do.

I understand that some people think they're fat.

What I don't get is my friends, who think they're fat.
When they're not!!
They are the proportioned. None of them needs to go on a diet.
Maybe eating healthier like me, but not on a full on diet where they want to lose 10 kgs.
This is not what i want my friends to be (I'm sorry, but i don't)
i want them to love the body they have
I want them to cherish their bodies
What they have, and what they don't have.
You can't enjoy life at the fullest, if you don't love yourself.
You can't expect people to love you, if you first don't love yourself.

I dont think I can hang out and eat with people who counts the calories in everything they eat.
it's annoying
and I won't be able to enjoy myself.
That's not how I want my night out to be- where I can't enjoy my steak because the person in front of me is only eating salad and counting the calories in every tomato that they put in their mouth.

self-confidence
to love oneself

that is what I want.
I have just began to love the way I am.
I wish that people around me will love the way they are too.
Embrace what your mama gave you~

Rains....

i love the rain
because when i look up at the darken sky, and the rain falls onto my face
it reminds me of sad things that is happening in my life.
I use to cry to sleep.
and it wasn't a good habit.
And when my life is at the very bottom, i would cry to sleep every night.
I can admit it now, to everyone on here, to strangers, and most of all, to my friends.
I use to cry myself to sleep sometimes.

But i don't do it anymore. Coz i know it's bad for my health.
But I can't just keep it in, and not let it out, because that's also bad for my health.
And so the opportunity comes when the rains fall down.

I'm not being emo, though i might sound like one.
And please don't go up to me and ask if i'm ok, because that will just piss me off.
Me sitting in the rain enables me to ponder about my life- what has happen, how i could fix it, what will happen, how i can make it happen.

The rain not only makes me think of sad things that has happened in my life, it also makes me think of the wonderful joyful childhood that I had.
Why? When I was little, and it rained really hard, but not storming, my parents would let me and my brother and sister go outside and play in the rain. Screw getting sick afterwards. We were the only people outside, jumping into paddles, screaming, running around.. it was fun. I also wish for it to rain so that I could go outside and have fun.
Childhood years were fun, i wish i could get them back again.

Flash Cherry..

Life can be so fairLet it go on and on

I can push for goodYou got that cherry bomb

Blow out that cherry bomb for meWe lost it long ago
You and me
Now you know your way back from the spirit farBrush your teeth for bed
Blow out that cherry bombBlow out that cherry bomb for me
You got to know it's on your sleeveKnow it's on your sleeve
Know it's on your sleeve

It was the longest day that I ever knownI watched you start that drive alone
Blow out that cherry bomb for meIt's gonna burn right up your sleeve
Burn right up your sleeveSo there you go again
Out in your dressing gownGet yourself to bed
Blow out that cherry bomb

Oh, life could be so fairLet it go on and on
I could pay to haveHave all your cherry bomb
Oh, life could be so fairLet it go on and on
I could pay to haveHave all your cherry bomb

A mask to sleep with...

I cannot draw your face,
No, i cant sketch any line.
Your calm resemblance
that looks like twilight
Yet sunrise at the same time,
Your invigorating countenance
Oh, how I'd love to touch it.
It cannot be written,
No, it cannot be put down into papers,
No, the pencils cannot handle it,
No, I'll just stare into the paper
And imagine you were there
Staring back at me.