I love me!!

I have never dieted before, and no matter how many times i say I would diet, I don't. because i know that i don't need to diet. I just need to eat healthier. I once weighed myself and found that my weight, in relation to my height, i just made it into the "healthy" range.

I understand that people need to diet
I understand that some people need too.

I understand that some people will never think they are skinny enough
I understand
I really do.

I understand that some people think they're fat.

What I don't get is my friends, who think they're fat.
When they're not!!
They are the proportioned. None of them needs to go on a diet.
Maybe eating healthier like me, but not on a full on diet where they want to lose 10 kgs.
This is not what i want my friends to be (I'm sorry, but i don't)
i want them to love the body they have
I want them to cherish their bodies
What they have, and what they don't have.
You can't enjoy life at the fullest, if you don't love yourself.
You can't expect people to love you, if you first don't love yourself.

I dont think I can hang out and eat with people who counts the calories in everything they eat.
it's annoying
and I won't be able to enjoy myself.
That's not how I want my night out to be- where I can't enjoy my steak because the person in front of me is only eating salad and counting the calories in every tomato that they put in their mouth.

self-confidence
to love oneself

that is what I want.
I have just began to love the way I am.
I wish that people around me will love the way they are too.
Embrace what your mama gave you~

All in words!!

I looked up the dictionary meaning of the word 'cliche' today. It said - overfamiliar through overuse.
So what do words really mean to you? Think of some words you say every day. Like Good morning, Sorry, Thank you, Bye, Take care.. Perhaps the difference is when you really mean them. When you tell something thank you, can he hear it in your voice? But it's your choice. Really.

Of course, when someone talks too much, you'd rather roll your eyes and scrunch up your face to gather sympathy from on-lookers or probably hang yourself from that invisible rope. And if someone doesn't respond at all, you feel like banging your head on the nearest table. Or perhaps, the silent buddha's head instead of yours.

Can words be overused? Not if you mean them. If you tell someone you love them every single day, does that mean the word 'love' loses its importance by 1% every time you say it? Not if you mean it every time you say it. And maybe it helps you build your relationship by 1% every day.What if you speak without meaning it? I'd liken it to a daily ritual, like brushing your teeth. You'd get up every morning and do it because either you have to do it or it has just become a habit. Ever thought of what you meant by 'What's up?'

A teacher once told me, "You can't sing." I wonder if I should've believed her. A friend says, "You're so cute!" I wonder if she'll remember me ten years down the line. Then again, my Mom says, "You silly girl!" And I believe her. It makes me love her more. A friend says, "You're an idiot!" And it makes me happy.

Ideas are born out of words. They make and break relationships. They can bring a smile on someone's face and wipe it away for ever. And to some people,words mean the world. Even Neil Armstrong had something to say when he stepped on the moon! We all have to say something.
Perhaps it wouldn't hurt to listen to yourself once in while.

Tech Talk..:)

Who me?
Whenever I talk to my friend vish, I take pride in the fact that I knew more about the 'colorful' side of life than him. Now I wouldn't dare define colorful. Stuff about poems, general issues, colors, designs, pictures..anything! I could always counter him and make fun of him saying, " Useless fellow! You should try to be more creative.." And then I'd puff up my chest and walk away. He knows I have an upper hand in this matter and the poor fellow always accepted defeat.

Ah laptops. Everybody owns a laptop these days. vish also got a sleek shiny laptop. Since my eyes can't resist anything that shines, I dreamed too, of owning a laptop! So I finally coaxed my dad to buy me a laptop from the dilli (it's cheaper out there), with the promise that I'd pay him back.
I proudly walked up to vish and said, "Ha! Now I'm also getting a laptop!" Gen being the old sweet natured guy said, " Oh that's great. So what are specs?"
"Specs?", I blinked.
"Yeah...the specifications, the brand, the memory etc.."
"Oh ya..that. Yeah, the normal stuff."
Now it was vishy's turn to look confused. "Normal...?"
"Ya, the normal stuff. I guess HP."
I tried to look confident. I had seen the enticing HP advertisements and it was probably the only brand I remembered at the moment.
Gen continued, " You should get a good graphics card. I got an ATI for mine. There are a lot of high end models like Nvidia Geforce 8600gt. You could go for 2 GB RAM, 2 GHz speed. Older computers had PIII and PIV, but centrino Core2 Duo is in now. HDD should idea be 200GB or plus if you're going to use Windows Vista. 14" laptops are more comfortable to carry around though I have a 15" Toshiba..."

All I heard was " Blah blah and blah."

:(
Damn. The ball was in his court this time, even though he didn't realise it.

Memories to carry...

when i thought i had nothing going for me,
i didn't know where i was going in life, what i was here for, and what not.
And then i decided to change my lifestyle- to forget about everything that has happened and start new.
But then i wondered, you can't really start new. And why should you start new.
I remember this scene in One Tree Hill and Lucas and Kieth moves away to start a new life in Charlotte, but then Dan had a heart attack and they came back.
I want to start anew- to just forget and start all over. Forget everything.
But then I wonder if there that is the best option.
Wouldn't it be better to fix the problem instead of ignoring it?
Instead of making new friends, fix the problems with your past friends?

I had a small holiday for the past two days. I left home and went down to the beach with a few of my friends and just enjoyed their presence without thinking about my life back up here. And it worked, i barely thought of what was happening up here, and i could laugh and smile without forcing myself.
That trip to the beach came at a really good time.
And now that i'm back, i can start this new regime for a better life.

I don't want to forget. As much as i like to take the easy way out, I don't want to forget it.

"...but you know there's something I believe. I want to try and live my life carrying all my memories with me. And even if those memories are painful, even if they do nothing but hurt me, I want to keep them. Even those memories I sometimes wish I could forget. As long as I cary them with me, as long as I can keep holding on, then someday I'll be strong enough that those memories don't hurt me anymore, and I'll be glad that I have them. Thats what I believe with all my heart. Thats why all my memories are precious to me, I don't think it would be okay to forget a single one."

For Ever.....

Friends...
some comes and goes
others stay forever.
some stupidly cheat you
others cherish you and treat you like you're part of their family.

This is a shout out to my friends.

I didn't think i would of been able to make a long-term friend.
believing that they would soon find out i'm not interesting enough and leave.
but during my years- from highschool and through uni; i've been blessed with the opportunity to be able to meet a wide range of people from all over the world. All with different personalities, different takes on life...

but to be able to find those few from the millions of people you meet throughout your life- those few that stands out from everyone else.

I'm blessed to have met my few. The three girls and two boys who I was able to meet. How we met, i can't remember it anymore, but i don't care about how we met, its the fact that we met, and that they've became my family.

I want to thank them for always looking after me. For always treating me as family. For always teasing me and picking on me. And for being there for me through the tough times.
I don't know what i would've done without you guys.

these five shares my dreams with me. It might not be the same as theirs, but they're always beside me when i dream.
though i know they do judge me when i can't spell/speak properly, they don't make me feel more stupid then i already feel
they're there for me to spill out my daily hatred of the world, and they will, instead of hitting me in the head and tell me to get over myself, join me in hating the world.

I hope that one day, I will be able to show you guys how much you mean to me.
I hope we will be friends forever

(I know we will, since we made a pact that if we're not taken by 35- we'll join together and live together with our cats/dogs/life size dolls) =P